I came home from my trip to California to see my parents to
find the weather here has turned fall-ish! Between that and the rejuvenation of
my visit, I feel like a new person.
I indulged in some favorite simple pleasures, such as
stopping at Granzella’s for a sandwich and a walk through their gift shop. I
practiced yoga twice, and took several walks around my mom’s property, making
the acquaintance of some cows and some horses.
One of my favorite things is the
way it smells out there. I breathed deeply as I explored the landscape of my
childhood summers.
I bought books at Cal’s used bookstore (and had to have them
shipped home since they wouldn’t fit in my suitcase). One afternoon, my aunt
and cousin came for tea and a cutthroat game of dominoes.
How now brown cow? |
The ladies next door |
At my dad’s I went shopping with my stepmom, filled up on my
dad’s delicious salad, admired the changes they’d made to their home, and loved
on their kitty.
Best. Salad. Ever. |
Misty |
I always become introspective on trips. Somehow the distance
from my everyday life lends itself to pondering. This trip was no different.
Two main themes developed: consciousness of mortality and gratitude.
I don’t think about dying often but on this trip I realized
that continued life is not a guarantee. I’m blessed to have my parents still
living, but they are both aging and have health problems (though they’re
hanging in there and following doctors’ orders). I can’t help but worry about
them and wish I could check in on them in person more frequently. Seeing their
challenges makes me want to take better care of myself to give myself the best
chance possible to have healthy senior years.
Also, to bring the mortality theme home, while I was in
California, a good friend of mine from high school died from an aneurysm. He
was just 52.
While I’m sobered, I’m also filled with gratitude. I love my
life right now! Overall, things are going the way I want them to go. I have
work, friends, family, and animals that I love. I was ready to come home when
my trip was done instead of wanting to extend it for more days.
I’m all unpacked and the suitcase is put away. Because of
the East Coast/West Coast time difference, I’m still having trouble going to
sleep (and staying asleep), but that will pass. I’m back at my Monday morning
exercise class today and will likely ride Tank tomorrow. I’m grateful. I’m
lucky.
I’m happy at home.
Photo courtesy Alessandra Carassas |
Introduction by Ted Kooser: While many of the poems
we feature in this column are written in open forms, that’s not to say I don’t
respect good writing done in traditional meter and rhyme. But a number of
contemporary poets, knowing how a rigid attachment to form can take charge of the
writing and drag the poet along behind, will choose, say, the traditional
villanelle form, then relax its restraints through the use of broken rhythm and
inexact rhymes. I’d guess that if I weren’t talking about it, you might not
notice, reading this poem by Floyd Skloot, that you were reading a sonnet.
Silent Music
My wife wears headphones as she plays
Chopin etudes in the winter light.
Singing random notes, she sways
in and out of shadow while night
settles. The keys she presses make a soft
clack, the bench creaks when her weight shifts,
golden cotton fabric ripples across
her shoulders, and the sustain pedal clicks.
This is the hidden melody I know
so well, her body finding harmony in
the give and take of motion, her lyric
grace of gesture measured against a slow
fall of darkness. Now stillness descends
to signal the end of her silent music.
Reprinted from “Prairie Schooner,” Volume 80, Number 2
(Summer, 2006) by permission of the University of Nebraska Press. Copyright ©
2006 by the University of Nebraska Press. Floyd Skloot’s most recent book is
“The End of Dreams,” 2006, Louisiana State University Press. This weekly column
is supported by The Poetry Foundation, The Library of Congress, and the
Department of English at the University of Nebraska-Lincoln. We do not accept
unsolicited manuscripts.
Guess where I am? I’m indulging in simple pleasures and
everyday adventures in California while I visit my parents. Here, there’s no
chorus of projects, laundry, or errands. Time for a break, to enjoy my family,
escape the humidity and hurricanes, and recharge. Time to hear myself think on the airplane and on the drive from
the airport to my mom’s house. Time for reading and sketching, drinking tea and
playing games. Heaven!
My posting schedule won’t be affected much. I’ve scheduled a
poem for next Wednesday as usual, and I hope to be back here next Friday to share my
adventures, but until then I’ll have limited email and computer access by
choice. I need some recharging and well-refilling.
Whatever your week holds, I hope it’s a happy one!
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“Happiness comes from living as you need to, as you want
to. As your inner voice tells you to. Happiness comes from being who you
actually are instead of who you think you
are supposed to be.”
—Shonda Rhimes